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I told God my plans and He laughed. So now I am living, laughing, and loving according to His Plans.

Omnivore Gone Herbivore

It is incredible the difference in my severe, constant, unrelenting nausea since I became vegetarian and nearly vegan (I love honey butter on bagels and there is chocolate). I used to have to take an anti-nausea pill, an acid control pill, and a pill to empty the contents of my stomach rapidly anytime I ate anything. Now I take them as needed. I can go days without needing anything for nausea except for a pill at bedtime. I am actually getting protein into my system again, and vitamins that I was seriously deficient in because I was existing on so little. However, discovering that the key was to eliminate all animal proteins was not made by any doctor. The doctors kept saying that it might be food allergies, or all neurological, or the result of Gollum (the microadenoma on my pituitary gland), or medication effects, or to just wait 3 months and come back (my favorite - lets do nothing and see if anything changes!). I put the pieces together and it seems that for some reason my body can no longer tolerate or process animal proteins. I have gone vegetarian once before, for a summer, and I have been vegetarian long enough now that once again meat actually smells repulsive. I have no moral issue with you eating it, and I am not out to buy vegan faux leather costs more than the real thing shoes any time soon, but I will stick to my meatless barbque ribs. Thank God that vegetarian comes prepackaged and microwaveable because when I developed the issues with animal proteins I did not simultaneously develop the ability to cook. I look at the raw Tofu and other weirdly named vegetarian proteins like Quean (making things up here) and Waegan and laugh because I have no idea how you take that stuff in the package and make it edible. I then move over to the vegetarian chicken breasts marinading in sweet and sour sauce that you microwave for three minutes before eating and am back in my territory. I do have one question though. If we never established what part of a chicken was the nugget, what exactly is a vegetarian chicken nugget made from?

Ya got me on that chicken question! Our daughter is in her 5th year of being vegetarian and absolutely does it out of her belief that it is wrong to eat animals. But, we settled that issue long ago - no trying to convince us to her way and we would continue to support her in the diet of her choice. Since she was 14.

We do eat less meat because of her.

This is a prayer answered for me - you can eat again! Thank G-d your angels helped you figure this one out!

Now on to more serious matters - as I catch up on your blog.

Job 8:21

"He will fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy."

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This is Me

I am a thirty year old enigma who has defied every expectation ever placed upon me and refused every definition created for me. My greatest passion in life is to make a difference in the lives of children with special needs and their families. As a special education teacher I broke all of the unwritten rules to make sure that my kids received the services they needed and had a right to receive. I have never been so proud to be reprimanded before in my life. Now, due to unpredictable twists in life, I am learning first hand what life is like when you rely upon a wheelchair for mobility. I am a medical puzzle with the pieces slowly being identified and put together, and my medical bills alone could fund a small nation. It takes a village to keep me alive. :) However, I am not defined by the genetic misspellings. I am a teacher, a daughter, an aunt, a friend, a dreamer, a reader, an amateur photographer, a writer, an advocate, a star gazer, a world changer. I am stubborn, situationally shy, quick to use humor and wit to make others laugh or cope with a situation, sarcastic, fiercely independent, giving, compassionate (sometimes to a fault), protective of those I love, defiant of arbitrary boundaries, perfectionistic, self conscious, self assured (yes you can be both!), articulate and occasionally dramatic. And that is just what I could fit in two sentences! :)

Who's On First, What's On Second, I Don't Know! (Third Base!!)*

Simple Vocabulary Definitions for those who may not speak fluent medical :)

Undiagnosed Progressive Neurological Disorder- This is the diagnosis that is believed to make everything else fit together. It explains my frequent infections, my muscle weakness and dystonia, my dysautonomia, my cardiac issues, my inability to regulate blood pressure, my dysphagia, my ataxia, my severe fatigue, my extreme nausea, my gastrointestinal dysmotility and IBS like syndrome, my unbelievable migraines, my sensory changes in my arms and legs, my vision issues, my hearing loss (so much for blaming medication), and so much more. Going back to infancy and childhood, this would explain the severe apnea, the significantly delayed motor skills, the reason why I could never keep up with my peers in physical activities, the neurogenic bladder, the malfunctioning thyroid, and my frequent illnesses and vomiting. This is the diagnosis now being used since the DNA testing for Mitochondrial Disease came back odd and I can not afford the expenses of a workup at the Mayo Clinic. We are treating symptomatically.

Pan-Dysautonomia- "Pan" means that it impacts many different systems of my body, "dysautonomia" is a failure of my autonomic nervous system or the part of my brain that does all of the automatic things that do not require conscious thought like telling your heart to beat, regulating your blood pressure, adjusting your body temperature, maintaining balance in space, digesting food, hunger and thirst, etc. It is believed that I have had this from birth based upon my history of symptoms, including severe life threatening apnea as an infant, but the cause remains elusive at this time

Dystonia- abnormal muscle tone and spasticity, including painful spasms, that primarily impacts my feet and lower legs and is now starting to be a problem in my back

Ataxia- difficulty maintaining balance and coordinating/executing movements

Dysphagia- difficulty swallowing due to any number of causes including muscle weakness and poor muscle coordination

Adipsia- the absence of a sense of thirst

Other Medical Issues- Lupus Anticoagulant (autoimmune disease that causes me to tend to form blood clots and has already caused two deep vein blood clots and one mild stroke), Migraines, unknown connective tissue disorder, abnormal gastric motility, allergies, history of v-tach and severe sinus tachycardia, changes to my echocardiagram that include leaking valves and a new murmur, low blood pressure, ataxia, untreated PFO (small hole in my heart that increases the risk of stroke), chronic lymphadema in my left arm, Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, Narcolepsy/Idiopathic CNS Hypersomnolance (believed to be a result of the dysautonomia and my brain's inability to regulate the sleep/wake cycle), mild hearing loss, malformed optic nerves, polycystic ovarian syndrome, pernicious anemia, vitamin deficiencies

* Title comes from an old Abbot and Costello routine that I chose to memorize in 6th grade and absolutely love.